Hello to anyone who actually read my journals.
I have been having to worst couple of days and just had to write something to get it out.
1. My lovely new gaming computer has decided to die on me. No!!! and I haven't even done any back ups since i got it. I feel so stupid for not doing that. So sadly because of that I may not get on as often as I would like, and I may just yet lose all my work on my stories. I had some really good stuff too that was only on my Laptop. Stupid thing. :tear:

2. I have grown out of my interest in doing my nursing degree. Sadly I no longer have an interest in becoming a nurse, while I do want to help people the stuff with being a nurse has finally put me off it.  It was also because I realized the only reason I was doing this was to please my parents, which wasn't making me happy and isn't a reason to do anything.
My sister thinks I should still do it, and maybe I should but I don't think I would do too well without the motivation to finish. So now I have wasted about a year and half of my life...though I suppose they weren't all bad and I felt I have grown as a person since doing Uni.
The only problem now is that I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I was so set on being a nurse I didn't make a plan B if it fell through. Numerous people have suggested writing of some sort and that does sound like fun...but oh I don't know.
Maybe I'm just lazy.

3. Relationship problems....do I really need to say more. I've moved away from my friends, and sadly lost touch with most; and now I'm got guys taking an interest in me and personally It's freaking me out!! While I would think it wouldn't bother me too much, the fact is most of them are a little older then I'm comfortable, and I'm too nice to tell them I'm not interested, AND half the time I don't realise they were flirting until after they left. Doesn't help I'm at work and kinda have to be nice.

4.My stories!! I don't think I need to tell you guys that I haven't been updating much, and for those that are reading my on-going stuff on FF.net [link] and the one one going one on here, I'm sorry. I've....I guess putting off new chapters.I have some ready to upload, just I keep changing things, and new ideas keep popping up! My OCs seem to be breeding. I did a count, and including ones that I've thrown out or finished with I have...wait
Anaya (Naruto. Finished), Itami (Naruto. Finished), Azure (Inuyasha. Binned), Midori (Naruto), Luna (Naruto. On-going), Shimi (Naruto. On-going), Evona (Inuyasha...major crossover. Drafting),Sylvia (Storm Hawks. Drafting), Jendayi (Yu-gi-oh. Drafting)....

I think that's all of them. See!! I don't plan on it and they just appear. I try to make then seem real and not...mary-sue. Though I think I failed with Anaya.



Well....I think I've finished with my rant....I feel exhausted now, though that may because it 2:20 in the morning. Joy!
Have a wonderful night and happy mid year everybody.